Well hello,

Hope you're all ready for Christmas my lovelies. I am but I can't say I'm feeling all that Christmas spirit yet.. hope it kicks in soon although I can't see it to be honest.

So Friday was our work Christmas do at Posh Hotel and Golf place.. I organised it and despite much whining, moaning and general bitching everyone had a fabulous time and scrubbed up rather nicely! Got absolutely plastered, and only spent £9.. not entirely sure how that happened though. Even had a bit (a lot) of a dance. When I say dance I actually mean leaping up and down in a ska type fashion but hey, I gave it a try.

Guitar Boy looked absolutely dazzling. Dazzling doesn't cover it at ALL, not even remotely, but its the only word I can find. At some point(s?) he was dancing with me, not touching at ALL, not one bit but his face was so close and his nose was touching my cheek, and his mouth was so near to mine he could have kissed me, I could feel the heat coming off his body and feel his breath on my face. His grin lights up a room and he is seriously, seriously out of my league... and then we were outside and he kissed me. I can't remember the kiss really, but he kissed me. And I kissed him back. And it was everything I had hoped it would be.

And now I kind of wish I hadn't. All those months of flirting, sexual tension, smiling and laughing and generally mucking about, and now its gone. Like when you spend 5 months looking forward to a festival, have a severely amazing time and then have to go back to real life.

We all piled back to a party afterwards and nothing else occurred, and there was definitely no post-snog weirdness the next morning but now I'm worried there's weirdness somehow. I know I don't have any but I sincerely hope he doesn't. And I seriously hope that we are still mates you know? Don't want to lose a good mate over a nice yet pointless snog. Hopefully he is proper boy and doesn't give a monkeys / doesn't do weirdness - its not like we slept together or anything is it.

Oh, couple of other things, also licked THE ABS in FULL view of everyone although luckily this was before the snogging but after some boozing so hopefully hardly anyone saw. I can testify that The Tattoo On THE ABS tastes of cherries... and then got talking to Guitar Boy's mother. She works with us and is only 5 years older than I am. Oops. She informed me that her son isn't actually 20.. and I believe I told her I loved him. Ooops. But thank god she approved wholeheartedly and declared me to be lovely, well brought up girl who shouldn't be still single. Anyway...

So now am desperately looking forward to many nights out over Christmas in which I can attempt to drink him off my mind. Don't want to be tragic Cougar type woman who only gets off with inappropriately young men...

Went to see Twilight in the cinema on Saturday - AMAZING!!! Came out, and went straight back in to watch it again. Going again on Wednesday also. Only criticism is very little Jacob in it, but roll on New Moon for the Jacob Fest next October!

Hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and a fabulous New Year!!

xxxx