http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/I'm a single girl aged 33. I love my life but I am currently confused about whether or not I love being single. I work in an office.en-EUMokoFeed10http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/4d/9513173785b4d0aa9d9184c6c59962_160x200.jpghttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2009/04/07/nothin-but-a-good-time-and-it-don-t-get-better-than-this-5906490/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2009-04-07:/2009/04/07/nothin-but-a-good-time-and-it-don-t-get-better-than-this-5906490/Tue, 07 Apr 2009 19:43:21 +0200 <p>Well HELLO!!</p> <p>God, been ages again hasn't it! So what have you been up to? Where have you been? Good music?</p> <p>Just had THE best weekend EVAH - went to a charity gig in CitynearwhereIlive on Saturday. It was a proper Glam metal night, with fabulous disco playing such select choons as Poison, Tigertailz, Motley Crue, you name it. Had an absolutely CRACKING time with Miss HCH and DJD who we met for a drink beforehand. There was (I'm told) a raffle but I didn't (to my knowledge) win any prizes. There were also more hot metal blokes than I have seen in one place since about 1990. I'm serious. Cowboy hats, bandanas, guyliner, scarves, jewellery, big hair - Ding DONG! I was in my element. I haven't had such a fab night out in ages, and ALL the nights out I have are generally amazing, so you can imagine. Spoke to a few people I haven't seen since about 1993 (who'd all aged worse than I have. Ha!).</p> <p>(I think) I snogged a bloke who I fully believe to be the hottest man (and he was a man, not a boy) I have ever laid lip on. Looked kinda like Nikki Sixx (now). Of course, he turned out to be idiot player, 38 with 3 kids and a wife (he says) he's divorcing, oh and possibly a girlfriend, oh and of course he looks camp as HELL on the photos and of course he looked ropey as the next day when we met up for drinks with him and his mates briefly. But hey - this is what rock is all about my lovelies!! </p> <p>Managed to get some rather horriffic photos taken (all on facebook if you know me, some of them thankfully not tagged), tried on a hat and some rather nice shades, all of which I was forced to give back. Did acquire a rather nice star necklace, so thank you for that Mr Sixx.</p> <p>This has convinced me though that I am still able to pull an utter hottie, so big ol' confidence boost for me and no intention of settling for anything less in the near future.</p> <p>OH! Also, Friday night I thought I'd check out the bands playing at this gig. Looked 'em up on Myspace and thought the bassist of one of them looked rather familiar.... yup, bloke I brought home last year when we won the rugby who was way out of my league (except clearly he's not!). Band were pretty good, and he was V hot, so snaps for me on that one too!</p> <p>Couple of weeks ago went to see Guitar Boy's band play at a biker club in CityNotFarFromWhereILive. Had a most excellent time, despite a bit of a conniption on my part trying to find out if the girl he's 'knocking off' was going to be there. (The pretext on that one being if she was, I wasn't - I might not be the most sensible girl in the world, but I'm good at looking after my emotional self). She wasnt. So went along, a great time was had by all, got chatted up by THE biggest biker I've ever seen and drank lots and lots of cider at £2 a can! As all the Welsh people were leaving, I went out to wave 'em off and Guitar Boy ran off the bus and gave me a rather lovely hug and a kissonthecheek. Lots of lovely workplace flirting, glancing and pretendy romancin going on at the moment too, so thats cool with me!</p> <p>This coming weekend is Easter. Had no plans at around 12:00 today, and by 12:30, had a weekend full of 'em. So lets keep our feet on the ground and our horns in the air and hope it rocks like a motherf*cker!!!</p> <p>Love ya tons like currant buns!<br> Axx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2009/04/07/nothin-but-a-good-time-and-it-don-t-get-better-than-this-5906490/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>lifedatinglovekissingboysmusichttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2009/04/07/nothin-but-a-good-time-and-it-don-t-get-better-than-this-5906490/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2009/03/17/i-would-tell-you-that-i-loved-you-if-i-thought-that-you-would-stay-5778556/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2009-03-17:/2009/03/17/i-would-tell-you-that-i-loved-you-if-i-thought-that-you-would-stay-5778556/Tue, 17 Mar 2009 23:45:56 +0100 <p>Helloo my lovelies,</p> <p>Before I start let me apologise for the utter lack of response to the lovely lovelies who commented on the sheer idiocy of Abdul in my last post. Thank you guys SO much for your comments because they really did help. And yet...</p> <p>So a couple of weeks after that, went back to rock night at fab club and who should be there - him. Soon as we went in. I'm not gonna rehash this right now (despite Rehasher being an amezin band - go look 'em up!!) because I am OVER it but Abdul the Crazy acted like an utter moron all night, ignoring me, standing in my line of vision, then calling me til 4am with tales of woe about his imminent demise from some kind of heart failure which blatantly doesnt stop a man going out on the lash... blah blah blah. Long story short, he then apologised, still isnt over ex blah blah blah and then DEFRIENDED ME on facebook. Arsehole. What an utter loon though...</p> <p>Couple of weeks after that went to CityNearWhereILive to see my lovely friends there. For Wrestler Night. Where we all dressed up as wrestlers for no reason other than it's Saturday. I was Jeff Hardy. Even got recognised by a couple of kids in the beer garden. I had a GREAT drawn on beard too - LOVED it. Fabulous night out, ended up with many bruises and tons of amazing photos of the night too. Can't wait til Wrestler Night 2 - Summer Slam! </p> <p>Met a cute guy too (while dressed like Jeff Hardy... should have realised!), lets call him Cute Ian because that is his name. Not the 'Cute' part. I added that. But Ian. Anyway, lots of photos of Cute Ian looking well into me, all kinds of enthusiastic etc etc. Came back to my mates for drinks, was perfect gentleman, even helped me get my beard off with a Boots Facewipe. Gave him a lift home the next morning. Was all about coming and taking me out on a date and stuff and then NOTHING. Now, problem here is, I was very drunk at Wrestler Night. Seem to remember giving him A number, just not sure if it was my number, or even the correct MY number... or maybe he took it down wrong. Or maybe hes just not that into me. Ho hum. So if any of you lovely people knows Cute Ian, please have him washed and brought to my tent immediately, because he's lovely! </p> <p>Apart from that life has been all about studying (2 HR courses for work, plus my OU course is kind of eating my life), working hard (trade show in London a couple of weeks ago was tres uneventful and super hard work) and generally not sleeping enough. I've got my own nice office at work now. I get to see a lot of Guitar Boy so that's absolutely fabulous. To be fair though, I'm getting a bit bored of crushing on him now - he's 19, nothings going to happen there and he's been the object of my affection since last summer. I need a new crush!</p> <p>Met a cute 23 year old a couple of weeks back. FD we'll call him. He's cute, kisses nicely, can spell and is intelligent. He came to the cinema with HCH and me (I invited him when I was drunk) and laughed extremely loudly and inappropriately ALL the way through Watchmen - which is a LONG film anyway - whipped my armrest away and insisted on holding my hand and generally led me to believe him to be a bit radio rental. And guess what - into me. Texting, asking me out, you name it. SO cute. And so utterly, utterly insane. C'est typique.</p> <p>Anyway kids, I hope you're all doing absolutely fabulously and I promise not to leave it so long til next time.</p> <p>Loves ya.<br> Axxxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2009/03/17/i-would-tell-you-that-i-loved-you-if-i-thought-that-you-would-stay-5778556/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>lifeboyskissinglovehttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2009/03/17/i-would-tell-you-that-i-loved-you-if-i-thought-that-you-would-stay-5778556/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2009/02/01/you-told-me-once-i-made-you-smile-5489150/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2009-02-01:/2009/02/01/you-told-me-once-i-made-you-smile-5489150/Sun, 01 Feb 2009 23:40:03 +0100 <p>So, what kind of year has it been (so far?)....</p> <p>In my last post I was talking about going to a rock night with Miss HCH. I did, and we had a fabulous time too!! Rocked out big time all night, got our photos taken and horriffically posted on Facebook, drank WAY too much and I met a boy...</p> <p>The next morning, I remembered MEETING a boy, just nothing else. Miss HCH told me she believed him to be called Abdul. I was pretty sure this wasnt true, but was slightly trepidatious none the less.... He text me later that day, and he's SO not called Abdul. Begins with an 'A' but there the similarity ends.</p> <p>So, Abdul asked me on a date, I went and had a mucho fab and wonderful time - we chatted for ages, went to the cinema, he threw popcorn over me through the entire film - I laughed my backside off like I havent with a boy pretty much ever.</p> <p>Then he asked me out again - I went to his house, we played on the Wii, he whooped my arse, we laughed, I played guitar hero SOBER (and you all KNOW how I hate the joining in) he took the piss out of me, called me names, wasnt afraid of me at ALL and we had some very nice snogging, thank you.</p> <p>Then he asked me out AGAIN - by this point, he's texting me every day, calling me every night and is generally showing signs of being 'into me'. I want to point out that I am playing by The Rules at this point too. Went to his house,watched a film, laughed my arse off (I feel the need to point out that he's laughing too) and had lots of fab snogging. He asked if I wanted to 'take it up a notch' and I said no, not right now as I have to go home, and we agreed to wait.</p> <p>I was meant to be seeing him last night for a 'sleepover' date... but more about that in a bit. Friday night I went to PlaceByTheSea to stay with my friend Josephine, whom I havent seen in ten years. She found me on Facebook before Christmas and asked me to stay. It was fabulous! We had a super fun night out and it feels like I never DIDNT see her - it was like I saw her yesterday. If you look up 'Yummy Mummy' in the dictionary, there's a picture of Josephine.. She's just as stunningly gorgeous, as shiningly genuine, open, has the most infectious, beautiful smile ever and 100% fabulous top top person as I remember and now she has a fantabbatastic hubby (who I now feel I've known forever too) and a gorgeous little boy whom I heard her tucking into bed and I swear to god my non-maternal heart broke. Such a great night out and now I cant wait to see her again for more catching up!</p> <p>Then last night I was meant to be seeing Adbul... Ok lets call him DB(New) cos thats what Miss HCH called him. Id popped in to see another mate of mine en route from Jospehine's to his, and he text me saying 'can we have a chat'. Straight away I thought it was a bad sign. So I called him up and (long story short, I have a problem with my phone where it goes dead, you're chatting away but I cant hear you for about 30 seconds at a time and you cant hear me going 'phone's gone dead, hang on, hang on, f(&(*&&)*&)(*NG THING)... basically, he wants to take things slowly because he's not over his last Long Term Relationship (which he says ended right before Christmas, I have a feeling it was around October) and isnt over his ex. But he loves spending time with me and he loves my company, he just isnt ready for a relationship.</p> <p>We've been on THREE dates. THREE. No one had mentioned relationships.. specially not me. It wasnt me doing the nightly calling, the daytime texting and the facebook wall comments by the way... again with The Rules...And then he asked me if I still wanted to go round that night. Uhhh, no. No. I believe I have more self-esteem than to date someone on the offchance that they will end up liking me more / wont go back to their ex. He apologised a lot and I said dont - its how he feels, and I really do appreciate the fact that he was honest, because that must have taken balls, and its his feelings, you shouldnt have to apologise for your feelings, right?</p> <p>But I said no, I cant see him anymore. I'm no-ones 'make do' person. I deserve someone who wants ME, who is into ME and isnt constantly thinking 'well shes ok but she's not as good as....'.</p> <p>So ever since then, I've been on a hideous downer. Its like my 'Happy' I was so pleased about last time has gone and serve me right for banging on about it. Now I feel flatter than I did before Christmas. And I feel stupid. Stupid for feeling this bad about some guy I went on 3 dates with, stupid for feeling so good about him in the first place, stupid for believing someone could like me and it could go right, stupid for letting someone in. I dont know. I just feel stupid. Thankfully I have amazing friends and family who have made sure I'm ok and not wallowing despite being overly-emotional and prone to drama on a regular basis, but I'm gutted. My friends have variously said that he's stupid for missing out on me for the sake of an ex (and if she's that awesome, how come they broke up?), that she's found out he's seeing someone and is meddling (from my Psychic friend) and the general opinion is that he's an idiot and this would all have been information that was useful 3 weeks ago...</p> <p>And truth be told, I'm wallowing. I cant stop crying which makes me feel even MORE stupid.. My feelings are hurt and I really LIKED this guy - what is wrong with me that I'm not good enough? I know that's not it either - this all says more about him than it does about me but god that's how it feels right now. 3 dates can f**k me up so badly? God help me.</p> <p>Sorry this is such a downer entry, but I need to get it off my chest and somewhere else out of my system for a little while. Rant over...</p> <p>Jelly tots!<br> Axx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2009/02/01/you-told-me-once-i-made-you-smile-5489150/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>datinglovefriendshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2009/02/01/you-told-me-once-i-made-you-smile-5489150/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2009/01/10/happy-new-stuff-5353131/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2009-01-10:/2009/01/10/happy-new-stuff-5353131/Sat, 10 Jan 2009 13:05:16 +0100 <p>Hello my lovelies,</p> <p>Happy new year to everyone – I hope you all got through Christmas and other seasonal festivities utterly unscathed? I am more or less in one piece but have had a period of utter toxicity and have been detoxing furiously all week…</p> <p>Back to work was on Monday and my god I could have cried. Just the utter culture shock of having to get UP, and not wear my jimjams all day. The office was freezing cold all day and by lunchtime I thought my head was going to drop off. My neck and back were in agony, clearly from spending the last fortnight lying down most of the time and thus causing the muscles that hold my head up to waste away… the week got slowly better though, and the weirdest thing is I’ve been HAPPY all week. Actually HAPPY – not fair to middling, not ok, not ah I’ve been worse, actually factually HAPPY. Its very odd indeed but I have to say its fan-tabby-tastic! Now I’m just worried that at some point I’ll crash back to being slightly morose me, and then it’ll seem all the worse for having had the massive high beforehand. But while it lasts, I am LOVING being the happiest girl there ever was. </p> <p>There is no actual reason for this random happiness either – no illicit snogs, no marvellous goes at The Sex, nothing. Just happy. How odd.</p> <p>I’m also very pleased to say that there is utterly no weirdness between Guitar Boy and I at work. And thank god, because that could SO easily have gone the other way, causing weirdness in the workplace, hideous feelings and awkwardness all round. But no. None of that – normal service has been resumed, so we’re back to chatting, laughing, flirting and general tossing of insults and vile hand gestures. Hooray for sensible boys you can be friends with. I still think he’s really hot and totally out of my league, but he’s waaay too young for me and has a girlfriend, not to mention being slightly happy about himself but then that’s 19 year olds for you isn’t it? </p> <p>In other news I have returned to fat class. My gargantuan mass could remain unfettered no longer… I was beginning to exert my own gravitational pull and things were starting to orbit me, and a lot of my clothes had mysteriously shrunk. So now I am ‘eating sensibly’ in the hope of losing about 2 stone by this evening…..</p> <p>This evening Miss HCH and myself are off to a rock night in The City. I am very excited about this because I never get the opportunity to go to clubs playing the sort of music I like around here. And there maybe boys there – Boys I Don’t Know. Woo hoo!! Longhairs too! How exciting!!</p> <p>So watch this space - its gonna be a fun fab month, which if its an indication of the year ahead, means 2009 is going to rock my socks!!!</p> <p>Love ya!<br> Axx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2009/01/10/happy-new-stuff-5353131/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>lovelifemusicboysfriendshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2009/01/10/happy-new-stuff-5353131/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/12/22/i-put-on-my-best-sunday-dress-and-walked-straight-into-this-mess-of-mine-5261150/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-12-22:/2008/12/22/i-put-on-my-best-sunday-dress-and-walked-straight-into-this-mess-of-mine-5261150/Mon, 22 Dec 2008 20:33:43 +0100 <p>Well hello,</p> <p>Hope you're all ready for Christmas my lovelies. I am but I can't say I'm feeling all that Christmas spirit yet.. hope it kicks in soon although I can't see it to be honest.</p> <p>So Friday was our work Christmas do at Posh Hotel and Golf place.. I organised it and despite much whining, moaning and general bitching everyone had a fabulous time and scrubbed up rather nicely! Got absolutely plastered, and only spent £9.. not entirely sure how that happened though. Even had a bit (a lot) of a dance. When I say dance I actually mean leaping up and down in a ska type fashion but hey, I gave it a try.</p> <p>Guitar Boy looked absolutely dazzling. Dazzling doesn't cover it at ALL, not even remotely, but its the only word I can find. At some point(s?) he was dancing with me, not touching at ALL, not one bit but his face was so close and his nose was touching my cheek, and his mouth was so near to mine he could have kissed me, I could feel the heat coming off his body and feel his breath on my face. His grin lights up a room and he is seriously, seriously out of my league... and then we were outside and he kissed me. I can't remember the kiss really, but he kissed me. And I kissed him back. And it was everything I had hoped it would be.</p> <p>And now I kind of wish I hadn't. All those months of flirting, sexual tension, smiling and laughing and generally mucking about, and now its gone. Like when you spend 5 months looking forward to a festival, have a severely amazing time and then have to go back to real life.</p> <p>We all piled back to a party afterwards and nothing else occurred, and there was definitely no post-snog weirdness the next morning but now I'm worried there's weirdness somehow. I know I don't have any but I sincerely hope he doesn't. And I seriously hope that we are still mates you know? Don't want to lose a good mate over a nice yet pointless snog. Hopefully he is proper boy and doesn't give a monkeys / doesn't do weirdness - its not like we slept together or anything is it.</p> <p>Oh, couple of other things, also licked THE ABS in FULL view of everyone although luckily this was before the snogging but after some boozing so hopefully hardly anyone saw. I can testify that The Tattoo On THE ABS tastes of cherries... and then got talking to Guitar Boy's mother. She works with us and is only 5 years older than I am. Oops. She informed me that her son isn't actually 20.. and I believe I told her I loved him. Ooops. But thank god she approved wholeheartedly and declared me to be lovely, well brought up girl who shouldn't be still single. Anyway...</p> <p>So now am desperately looking forward to many nights out over Christmas in which I can attempt to drink him off my mind. Don't want to be tragic Cougar type woman who only gets off with inappropriately young men...</p> <p>Went to see Twilight in the cinema on Saturday - AMAZING!!! Came out, and went straight back in to watch it again. Going again on Wednesday also. Only criticism is very little Jacob in it, but roll on New Moon for the Jacob Fest next October!</p> <p>Hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and a fabulous New Year!!</p> <p>xxxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/12/22/i-put-on-my-best-sunday-dress-and-walked-straight-into-this-mess-of-mine-5261150/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>kissinglovesexlifeboyshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/12/22/i-put-on-my-best-sunday-dress-and-walked-straight-into-this-mess-of-mine-5261150/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/12/09/well-he-s-half-your-age-and-twice-as-hot-5185064/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-12-08:/2008/12/09/well-he-s-half-your-age-and-twice-as-hot-5185064/Tue, 09 Dec 2008 00:00:31 +0100 <p>Well hello,</p> <p>Hope you're all gearing up nicely for the festive season. I'm pretty much in denial about the whole thing, but thats how I like it.</p> <p>Dear god, a wonderful wonderful thing happened today. Got in to work only to find that Bossman had eaten the banana I'd been keeping for my breakfast and SOMEONE had opened day 8 on my slightly shite free advent calendar (thank you Recruitment Agencies). Harumphed for most of the morning, accused various Warehouse Monkeys of having robbed me of my one iota of Monday morning joy.. and then about mid-morning it occurred to me that there was a vague possibility of my having got my days mixed up last week and eating one too many.. </p> <p>So I duly apologised to Warehouse Monkeys, at which point Guitar Boy affixed me with his heowge puppy dog eyes and made me feel even more guilty. Pointed this out to his mate, who enquired as to whether I had asked him to roll over so I could tickle his tummy (long running joke involving Guitar Boy being cute as a puppy and just as easily entertained). I explained that no, I hadn't, would be rude to ask, and as a potential future member of the Senior Management Team in my possible capacity as Queen of HR, that would be sexual harassment and besides I was rather hoping he'd volunteer.</p> <p>About half an hour later, Guitar Boy marches into my office, up to my desk, with THE ABS out. OUT! Bare! In my office! And demanded, really and truly DEMANDED that I stroke them. THE ABS! (Can't remember exact wording - all a bit of a shock). Rude not to and all that, so I did. Good GOD. These truly are THE ABS that the Lord has made, we should rejoice and be glad of them. You know like that footballer and his hand of god? These are THE ABS of God. Really. SO hot and SO firm and SO smooth, and a lovely tattoo on there that probably tastes like something yummy if you lick it. I ACTUALLY broke into a sweat. I kid you not. It was all I could do to not vault my desk and lick him.. except WomanIShareAnOfficeWith was sitting at the other end of the room BESIDE herself, jaw on the floor, jealous (true I swear) aghast at this wanton display of showing off, sexual tension, lust, leering, petting, sexual tension, craving, whimpering, and did I mention sexual tension? </p> <p>Seriously - SO warm though. I swear to god he must keep a pair of shorts strapped to his ankle. (Target reference - Team Jacob, please go and read all the Twilight books immediately).</p> <p>That was it, I couldn't hold a sensible thought in my head for the rest of the day. Could seriously have done with a proper lie down in a dark room and / or a cold shower. (Lie down in a dark cold shower maybe?).</p> <p>I've done other stuff.... wait.. I know I have. Oh yes - Slipknot. Went to see them on Friday night, absolutely amezin. Fabulous gig, followed by super fun after party in which I snogged two gorgeous young men (not simultaneously I hasten to add), one of whom I snogged for a teenagedly long time.. you remember - just snogging and snogging and snogging and not really coming up for air at all? Fabulous!! So much fun! Both of them were MUCH younger than Drummer Boy (a little younger than myself also) and at least twice as hot (as Drummer Boy). Ding bloody dong. And I'm back on the long haired ones!!</p> <p>No word from Drummer Boy, so have de-friended him on Facebook, removed him from my phone and condemned him to the place where dumpees go.. the dumpee dumpster. Good enough for him I say. The next guy I go out with (and I feel like this list of my requirements is getting out of control a smidge) will in addition to all of my previously stated necessary qualities: come and pick me up at my home occasionally, not have a dog, actually like going OUT places not just staying in and getting wrecked every time, WILL be taller than I am in heels, will have GOOD tattoo's (maximum one SMALL slightly dodgy one), great taste in music (not just ok taste in music that he thinks is amezin and amounts to 2 bands), will drink (not excessively but enough to be normal) and will NOT be in a DODGY covers band.. I KNOW playing covers is where the money is, but CHRIST have some integrity, and if you HAVE to play covers, for F**KS sake play good ones.</p> <p>Think thats it for now!!<br> Hot boys and long hair and abs - OH MY!!!</p> <p>Axxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/12/09/well-he-s-half-your-age-and-twice-as-hot-5185064/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>entertainmentlifesexboysdatinglovemusichttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/12/09/well-he-s-half-your-age-and-twice-as-hot-5185064/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/11/30/ask-the-magic-8-ball-5138497/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-11-30:/2008/11/30/ask-the-magic-8-ball-5138497/Sun, 30 Nov 2008 17:33:43 +0100 <p>Well hello! How the devil are we? </p> <p>Sorry it's been SOOOOO long, but as you'll see presently, its been a busy time kids, so get the kettle on, make a cuppa, grab a hobnob and your cosy socks and we'll catch up is it??</p> <p>Well, last time I was just about to go and see my favourite band for the umpteenth time. Saw them twice that week and they were amezzin. Got to chat to their singer both nights, and he was a lovely, funny, charming man. Shorter than I thought, but then isn't everyone? Plus I'm fairly tall so it shouldn't really be that much of a surprise to me anymore.. first time I was blotto and couldnt remember what I said to him, so the second time I apologised and said I hoped it wasn't anything saucy.. he said he'd rather hoped it was. What a smoothie!! The gigs were also FULL of boys in hats.. and as anyone who knows me knows, I LOVE a random hat. Thusly HCH has about 40 photos of me in various different hats, posing madly.</p> <p>Went to see Flashdance a couple of weeks ago too, now I'm not a huge fan of the theatre because I can't suspend my disbelief enough. We know they're pretending, they know they're pretending and we're all just supposed to deal with that. I cant. It makes me embarrassed.. But this was a musical so that's ok. Somehow we ended up on a bus trip full of very 'chapel' middle aged ladies, who all had that funny 'short in the back, permed on the top' hairdo that middle aged ladies have (as HCH put it, how do you even ASK for that?). We typically ended up getting blotto, I cut my arm, we saw John Barrowman who is THE handsomest man I have EVER seen and could barely look directly at him, despite him being some distance away... had an incident with my phone that involved me having to gaffer tape my battery on for 4 days, and had a bloody fabulous time. Noel from Hearsay was in it, and HCH is convinced he was giving her the eye.. despite us being sat in the gods, about as far from the stage as you could get. But he totally was I swear it!!</p> <p>As someone kindly pointed out to me a few days later, I am the only person they know who can go to the theatre with a bus full of Chapel ladies,get plastered and cut myself... and yes, I really WILL go to anything.</p> <p>Went to the ice hockey a couple of days later, and god I'd forgotten how much I loved it! Am getting my skates sharpened next weekend so I might get back on the ice yet. And give me 5 minutes in the 'conflict resolution' box with number 16 ANY day of the week! </p> <p>In between all of this, there has been the usual level of random FOOGO, hangovers, bits of college work (just submitted my second assignment so wish me luck on that one!) and work work work. No random snoggage though. How boring.</p> <p>And then we come on to the subject of Drummer Boy. I'm still seeing him, but getting slightly disturbed at certain things. Firstly, now he's 'got' me, he has cut RIGHT back on the effort making... Secondly he smokes a LOT of pot. Now normally I would never date an utter stoner, but he's very functional, and that's worrying in itself. Normally stoners can't be arsed with The Sex.. he can. He never wants to do anything though, always have to go to his, watch a dvd, bottle of wine etc.. And then I was dipping into the old faithful 'He's Just Not That Into You'. Seriously a fabulous, amazing book. Its an oracle. I'd recommend it to any of you ladies because it's SO spot on... anyway, in the book there's a chapter which says, if he only wants to see you when he's drunk, he's just not that into you. It goes on to state that if your date is always stoned, its basically saying that he can't handle you at full volume - tantamount to him liking you more when you're in the other room.</p> <p>Now I know I'm a bit MUCH for some people, but surely this guy has chosen to date me, you think he'd want the FULL experience you know? Rather than sitting there with his life on mute. Because I live my life at utter full volume, all the time and thats how I like it! Humph.</p> <p>Oh and he's also got the hump with me about something... he text me last night and said 'are you still awake?' which he often does after a gig. Well it was 11:45pm on Saturday night, so yes I was. Replied and said I was still at the pub (had been on an all-dayer to watch the rugby, we won! I love Ryan Jones - gorgeous big scruffy lump of a man!! Ding dong!) but I'd give him a call on my way home. He replied and said if he was up, he'd answer. Oh right. Fine then! So I said well I'm sure he would be as everytime I stay at his, he never goes to sleep before 3. He replied something arsy along the lines of 'well Ive been playing for 3 hours' blah blah blah. So I 'whatevered' him. Now I'm aware that wasnt a particularly mature response, but I was drunk and I can't be doing with mantrums. No sir. Bought that tshirt years ago and burnt it. Havent heard from him today, so I deduce he has his arse in his hands and is being mardy. Why do I even CARE?</p> <p>In other news, Guitar Boy from work has got back together with his gf. Asked another guy at work what she looked like, he said he's been drunk every time he met her so he cant remember.... If she was Angelina Jolie, he'd REMEMBER right? Went on to say she's got dark hair and is 'sweet'. Pffft.</p> <p>Gah, Just had text from DB, very self-righteous and arsy with lots of 'frowny' faces. I HATE those bloody faces, and he uses about 40 of them in EVERY text message. God almighty. Toys out of pram big time. Not replying - clearly has no sense of humour! Let 'im stew for a bit I reckon!</p> <p>Hmmmm, what else is new.... oh, at work they've asked me to be the HR manager. I have NO HR training, so pointed out that I shall be needing some. Bossman seems to think its like flower arranging and I can just throw myself on the first tinpot course that comes along and be good to go in 6 weeks.. with no extra cash or anything because clearly am going to do it out of the goodness of my weasly black heart. Ahem. </p> <p>Think that's about it - shall let you know if I think of anything else.</p> <p>Have fun kids - stay warm!!</p> <p>Axxx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/11/30/ask-the-magic-8-ball-5138497/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>datinglifelovesexworkhttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/11/30/ask-the-magic-8-ball-5138497/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/11/04/the-rock-show-4979124/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-11-03:/2008/11/04/the-rock-show-4979124/Tue, 04 Nov 2008 00:24:11 +0100 <p>Eeeeeeeeeeeeee I am super excited kids! Going to see My Fave Band tomorrow night and I am bouncing with excitement. I might even be sick. I kid you not.</p> <p>Had a bit of a weird day - many flashbacks to drunken phone calls to and from Boys From Work Saturday night, luckily they were as hammered as we were so no one can remember anything anyone said. Probably couldn't understand it at the time either but the only thing anyone remembers was someone banging on about cups of tea.... Fortunately we seem to have a lot less bruises than they do. Why is it that boys get wasted and then start play fighting each other? Girls don't do that...</p> <p>Drummer Boy didnt text me ALL day - to begin with I was most indifferent to this, by clocking off time I was horrendously indignant and by 5:30pm I gave in and text him. Playing hard to get clearly has an effect on my shallow mind. I DEMAND that you want me even though I'm not sure if I want you back quite so much... except now, cos of the 'playing hard to get' I want him like a mad thing. So we're going to some fireworks Wednesday. Hopefully it'll be frosty cold so he can warm me up again when we get back. Ding dong! And its an excuse to wear mittens!! And have sparklers! And possibly hot soup in a mug!! And probably cider.</p> <p>Just had a bit of a scare from HCH - she kind of hooked up with this guy we know on Saturday night, and he's not British. So there is sometimes a bit of a 'lost in translation' issue about things, and somehow she's managed to make him believe that she and I are having a 'special' relationship. It could be a lot worse, except now he's sent me a message asking if I could answer a little question for him... thanks HC, you dig the holes, I'll fill 'em in.</p> <p>Happy, chilly, firework filled, ska-band, bounce til you're happy then bounce a bit more days to you all</p> <p>Love you lots like jelly tots!<br> Axxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/11/04/the-rock-show-4979124/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>fireworksfriendslifelovedatinghttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/11/04/the-rock-show-4979124/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/11/02/a-boring-life-in-a-boring-town-4972605/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-11-02:/2008/11/02/a-boring-life-in-a-boring-town-4972605/Sun, 02 Nov 2008 22:38:09 +0100 <p>Heyyyy,</p> <p>So its been busy eh? November is going to be HECTIC so I'm having a night in to take it easy and try and recharge some batteries..</p> <p>Day-date didn't happen last Saturday - utter communication failure so I sulked half the day. Dyed my hair with a dye I shouldn't have been allergic to. It didn't take and it made me itch. Amezzin. Went to the cinema in the night and accidentally went FOOGO afterwards...</p> <p>Tuesday I went out with Drummer Boy and stayed over. In the morning I was trying to sneak out without the neighbours seeing me, as they'd already interrogated him about whose car had been parked outside last Sunday. Got outside - car was frozen over so had to go back in for water to tip on it. Then whilst fecking about trying to get my satnav going, I leant on the horn. Smooth.</p> <p>Friday this week went to see Saw V and ended up sitting behind a row of noisy chavs, then last night went over to Bristol with HCH and the Bristolians for intentional FOOGO and was introduced to Jagerbombs. Only had 2 (and a load of cider of course) but my god I've suffered a bit today. Thank GOD we didn't act on the conversation which went 'Wonder how many of these we could drink before we fell down'.</p> <p>Was meant to be seeing Drummer Boy tonight but I need a night in my own bed and can't see me being conscious much past 10 so I blew him out and have rearranged for Wednesday. I'm still not 100% about it all - he's just so KEEN - he text me about 4 times this morning going on about how he hasn't stopped smiling since he met me. This is NOT a reaction I generally instil in people... not much of a jester and all that.</p> <p>Also on the phone the other night he started to say something and stopped, saying that 'its too big for the phone, I'll tell you when I see you'. So now I am UTTERLY terrified that he's going to try and have A Chat about Where This Is Going. I am SO not up for that at the moment... he's great and all, but I'm not ready to give up Kissing Boys. Worrying times kids.</p> <p>On the subject of Boys I'd Like To Kiss, Guitar Boy at work sent me a couple of tres flirty texts this week - long story but a bit of banter about him wanting a cup of tea in the morning and all that.. got a smiley face and a kiss on one of 'em and weirdly I was more excited about that than any text Drummer Boy has sent me. Damn he's hot *sigh* Meh. Its so HARD isn't it?</p> <p>Super busy weeks ahead - got two gigs this week, my favourite band in 2 different places, so I am super super excited about that! AND 2 days off work to boot. Fabulous!</p> <p>Have fun and stay outta trouble!<br> Loves ya<br> Axx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/11/02/a-boring-life-in-a-boring-town-4972605/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>drinkinglifelovedatingrelationshipshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/11/02/a-boring-life-in-a-boring-town-4972605/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/10/24/how-did-that-happen-4924024/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-10-24:/2008/10/24/how-did-that-happen-4924024/Fri, 24 Oct 2008 13:47:46 +0200 <p>Well, last Friday I had a somewhat emotional reunion with a very old love. Jack Daniels. I have sworn off the Jack because it magnifies my maniac tendencies and quite apart from intensifying the lunatic behaviour I am prone to whilst drunk, it gives me blackouts, possibly to protect my sanity, and a raging case of The Fear every time. At least he's consistent.</p> <p>So I went to my local with BB and HCH for that lethal favourite 'a couple of drinks'. Started nicely on the mad apple but everyone switched to shorts, so I decided to have a JD and coke. Double. I'm starting to think Jack and the mad apple are in league with one another. Anyway, at some point I had a few 'in between' drinks because the other two were drinking too slowly.</p> <p>There was a band in the pub, who were ok in all honesty, and I had noticed that their drummer was quite fit. So by midnight, I was feeling well foxy which should have meant it was time to go home, but instead I sent HCH to enquire whether said gentleman was single and if so could I have his number. Clearly she was blotto also because she did so quite merrily.</p> <p>It all gets a bit blurry after that, but I ended up taking Drummer Boy home with me. He was utterly sober. I have NO clue what I was saying to him, but knowing my previous joint-ventures with JD, it was either pointless, incoherent, smutty as hell or incredibly boring. He stayed over, penetration did not occur and he left for work around 8am Saturday and within minutes was texting me about what a great time he had. </p> <p>Long story short, went out on a date with him on the Sunday. He kept attempting to reference things I had said the night before, but after I'd begged him to stop for the 45th time I think he gave up. God how mortifying - I kiss my mother with this mouth?! I actually like him. He's a little older than the guys I normally go for (35) but this can't be a bad thing, he's intelligent, has a proper job, nice house, no kids, never been married (I think), good taste in music, great rack, tattoos etc etc etc. What's freaking me out is that he seems to think I'm great.</p> <p>I'm not BAD, don't get me wrong, slightly above fair-to-middling I'd say, but I am in no way all that. So now I'm thinking that there has to be something wrong with him if he thinks I'm so awesome.</p> <p>I am going on a 'day date' with him tomorrow... he's been texting me tons all week and I'm not sure if I prefer it when guys are utterly indifferent and could take me or leave me. So now that I finally have the chance to go on a date, with a guy that is my type and whom I am pretty sure I fancy, I'm not sure I am up for it....</p> <p>In typical me style, I have now over-thought it all to death and as a Cancerian I do not cope well with change in any form.. so I'm scared half to death and its only a second date. Its just so weird for me to meet someone I actually want to see more than once. Sober. Following the sage advice of Jables and Red I am breathing deep and am gonna calm myself, take it slow and see how it goes.</p> <p>In other wonderful news, I've now completed my allergy tests and am allergic to permanent hair dye and cheap metals. Two of my favourite things. At least its not strongbow and boys though - praise the lord!</p> <p>Have a fabulous weekend!<br> Love ya tons like currant buns,<br> Axx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/10/24/how-did-that-happen-4924024/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>drinkingdatingboyslovelifehttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/10/24/how-did-that-happen-4924024/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/10/15/did-i-remember-to-keep-your-beer-as-full-as-mine-4878148/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-10-15:/2008/10/15/did-i-remember-to-keep-your-beer-as-full-as-mine-4878148/Wed, 15 Oct 2008 23:00:42 +0200 <p>Hey!</p> <p>God its been ages. Sorry as hell but I've been busy!</p> <p>Hamsterjam ruled - in fact it kicked arse. Ms HCH and my good self did a TON of sight-seeing, drank too much heineken, accepted free shots from some extremely dubious looking bar tenders, got chatted up, found out we were apparently hot in Germany, Florida (we have great hair there too), Sierra Leone, Gambia, Kenya, Holland and wherever Random Sven came from. Also found out that Aussie women seem to want to adopt us and women from New York are just insane. We had a REALLY good bash at getting stoned one afternoon, had half a mellow joint between us, laughed like a proper pair of goons for an hour, couldn't move for the next 2 and generally showed ourselves up a treat. Didnt try that again. On the plus side, we are top international travellers and made it to Schipol, around Amsterdam on trams and trains for the entire stay and back home again, entirely without incident.</p> <p>Arrived back on the Friday night, awoke at 6am Saturday morning as I had a Thing that day, to find I had a text from TTM at 4am saying 'hi, whats going on with you? hope you're ok'. Replied along the lines of 'I'm super, thanks for asking' and left it at that.</p> <p>Until that evening, after the Thing, I text him something SO bad and random I am mortified to think about it let alone reproduce it here. Suffice to say I had consumed MUCH strongbow by that point. Surprisingly have not had a reply and am not expecting to hear from him ever again. Which is good really because he's clearly an utter emotional f**kwit.</p> <p>Last weekend was The Show. This involves selected staff (minions) from my Company turning up at a trade show which is usually a minimum of 4 hours drive from TWIL. Myself and HCH were 'selected' as usual. We got to City about 8pm and promptly went to the pub. Got back to the hotel around 2. Saturday morning we had to set up (i.e. spend 7 hours building the stand). Did so, went to a lovely Italian restaurant, then to the pub. Til 4am. Sunday morning, the show opened at 10. We got to breakfast around 9:20, and received a phone call from my boss, yelling 'Why arent you there? There are customers. They opened early'. We hurried our breakfast NOT ONE BIT, arrived there at 9:55am, not a soul in sight.</p> <p>Stood up all day but fortunately we had THE most gorgeous male model EVER on the stand in his boxers. So every time I looked up there was a gorgeous, gorgeous sample of maleness, semi naked in front of me. The urge to run over and just lick him was unbearable. Took him a coffee, he said I was his favourite. I am so stupid, shallow and impressionable that I was THRILLED at this. Bless me.</p> <p>Sunday night we were super tired, so we had a 'quiet' meal and drink in the hotel. Til 2am. Monday worked on the stand all day (again), different model this time, not quite so hot in my humble opinion (too easy to fight the licking urge) but works for Abercrombie & Fitch and D&G so cant be all bad. Got home at 1am after breaking down the stand and The Boss making me drive home. </p> <p>In other news, The Ex appears to think I'm dating someone from his town (one of my close friends has accepted his friend request on facebook and he told her so). This means he has either found out about my sleeping with Unfeasibly Hot Guy or getting off with Pierced Neck Guy. I dont care either way - both of them are hotter, more interesting and far cooler than him, and one or the both of them was younger. So its all good.</p> <p>Guitar Boy in work continues to be an Object of My Affection. Over the weekend, I somehow got sent his mobile number (somehow being me sending a drunk text to someone else asking for it I'd imagine) but, remembering the TTM text from the weekend before, I deleted it before I could make a total arse of myself in my ususal 'charging about the place being drunken and basically doing stuff I'll regret' way. YAY ME!! Am ALL about the willpower lately aren't I. </p> <p>He's so unutterably cute, he's just BEAUTIFUL and has these enormous brown eyes and great hair and he's a REALLY good guitarist, (and keeps flashing me his abs) but he's 20, so even if I got my paws on him, what the hell would I DO with him? Damnit, why isnt he 10 years older???</p> <p>Am sorta being courted by an Irishman who resembles Kelly Jones only taller... that's quite sweet I spose so lets see if anything comes of it. At the moment I am mostly glad I'm single because everyone I know seems to be having a bastard of a time in their relationships...</p> <p>Anyways, need my beauty sleep from all the male-model action of the weekend!</p> <p>Tots!<br> Axxxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/10/15/did-i-remember-to-keep-your-beer-as-full-as-mine-4878148/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>relationshipslifekissingtravelworkboyssexhttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/10/15/did-i-remember-to-keep-your-beer-as-full-as-mine-4878148/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/09/25/i-got-more-sick-with-every-sour-second-rate-kiss-4780833/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-09-25:/2008/09/25/i-got-more-sick-with-every-sour-second-rate-kiss-4780833/Thu, 25 Sep 2008 23:21:08 +0200 <p>Hello y'all,</p> <p>So what's happening? What have you been up to? Hope you've been well. I have been sick. Very sick. At first I thought this was due to the HORROR that is Eden Lake... went to see it with HCH because we fancied watching an '18' rated film. Bound to be scary that we thought. Oh. My. God. Horrifying. Seriously seriously sick. So after throwing up about 4 quids worth of popcorn (not nice) I thought that would be an end to it. Until I threw up in the cinema car park. At which point I suspected it to be Nando's. Continued to suspect this when I threw up again in the street on the way home (big thumbs up to HCH for managing to bring the Aygo Foogo to a controlled halt next to a pedestrian there). Continued to blame Nando's every time I had to stagger faintly to the bathroom Friday night / Saturday morning. Then found out that Mother had it also and she hadn't BEEN to Nando's so it was officially A Lurgy. Spent the weekend drinking water and lemonade and eating nothing apart from 3 pieces of toast. With marmite so not all bad.</p> <p>Sunday afternoon I managed to drag my sorry arse out of bed to go on a date with a bloke who had (against my advice) come 75 miles to see me. He'd arrived Saturday (against my advice) and spent the day pedalling about the countryside. Kept texting me all day Saturday threatening to come to TWIL. So Sunday I thought it only kind to go and meet him. By this point I was starving but with no appetite, sleep deprived and therefore slightly merciless and weak as a kitten. Oh and pre-menstrual.</p> <p>I drove to meet him - ok so far. Didnt want him coming to TWIL because a) someone might see me with him, b) it'd be harder to get rid of him. Have to just point out that I sort of met this bloke in my one and only, first and last foray into internet dating. Anyway, he looked hot in his sunnies, but was a bit short. He seemed slightly (i.e very) disappointed that I was not a goth, despite not being one himself and my never having CLAIMED to be a goth in the first place. He was ok and we decided to go to the cinema. Cinema is good as it doesnt involve talking. By this stage I had realised I didn't want to pounce him or do it to him til I was dead, so the entire afternoon was a bit dead in the water if I'm honest.</p> <p>Also I was under the weather (to say the least) and therefore probably unable to contain the fact that I wasn't interested. I didn't SAY anything, but as Mother is fond of telling me its always written all over my face anyway. I drove to the cinema - lucky me, seem to have been here before perhaps.... somehow I ended up first in the queue and I ended up paying. FOR BOTH OF US. At NO point did he even TRY the 'oh no, let me' thing. He bought me a bottle of water. Film was ok, dropped him off at his campsite afterwards, no snogging. He was a nice enough guy, just not for me.</p> <p>I now have a confession to make. I text TTM last night. I dont know WHY. I wasn't even DRUNK. As soon as I hit 'send' I regretted it. It was only a 'hi how are you' kind of a text, but really, deep down, subconsciously I was fishing. Strangely enough, no reply. But I feel SO bad that I did it. What is WRONG with me??? Grrrr. I deleted his number from my phone AGES ago. But of course I wrote it down somewhere, just in case. (In case of what? Just in case I want to know what that guy's number was who never got in touch with me? Honestly). And then, being the smart girl that I am I realised that having it written down would equal drunk texts. So I scribbled it out. Hard. Well. So you can't see it.</p> <p>Unless you take the page out of the diary and hold it up to the light and then you can SORT of make the number out. What is WRONG with me? What I should have done was scribbled it out, burnt the diary and had the ashes shot into SPACE for christs sake.</p> <p>I know he's the last guy that I met that I had any kind of feelings for whatsoever but jesus CHRIST woman, have some pride. Bah. Bah. BAH.</p> <p>But on a brighter note, I may have received a tip-off about where exactly all the hot men went when Grunge died out. I'm not telling you though - you'll only get there first.</p> <p>Love you lots like jelly tots<br> Axxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/09/25/i-got-more-sick-with-every-sour-second-rate-kiss-4780833/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>lifedatingloverelationshipshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/09/25/i-got-more-sick-with-every-sour-second-rate-kiss-4780833/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/09/13/there-are-things-that-used-to-make-me-smile-4722352/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-09-13:/2008/09/13/there-are-things-that-used-to-make-me-smile-4722352/Sat, 13 Sep 2008 15:19:54 +0200 <p>Hey y'all,</p> <p>Its stopped raining. TownWhereILive is basking in sunshine and its WARM. I was just about to post about how I am SO bored and have NO plans tonight due to having to get up at 5:30am tomorrow to go and do some work for my Dad when RB called and asked if I wanted to pop to hers tonight, so I shall. NottsGirl is going too, so thats a cool evening with my 2 oldest buds.</p> <p>Tomorrow after working, I am going to be having drinkies with my Bristol mates, so thats something else to look forward to. Apparently they are adopting a new pub / 2nd home so it'll be fun to try a new place and also check out the new talent! My life is SO devoid of any decent menfolks at the moment, its utterly depressing not to mention distressing.</p> <p>The sun is shining and I am sitting indoors, pretending to be doing some course-related reading, whilst really I'm writing to you. BAH.</p> <p>Hopefully I shall have more (i.e. SOME) news or gossip to impart in the next week.</p> <p>Axx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/09/13/there-are-things-that-used-to-make-me-smile-4722352/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/09/13/there-are-things-that-used-to-make-me-smile-4722352/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/09/11/stolen-from-fluffchucker-4715566/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-09-11:/2008/09/11/stolen-from-fluffchucker-4715566/Thu, 11 Sep 2008 23:11:18 +0200 <p>Because I have no news and feel I ought to post SOMETHING at least!!</p> <p>1. What time did you get up this morning? 08:10<br> 2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds<br> 3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? The Dark Knight<br> 4. What is your favourite TV show? The West Wing or Brothers & Sisters<br> 5. What do you usually have for breakfast? Coffee and a marlboro light<br> 6. What is your middle name? Rebecca<br> 7. What food do you dislike? Eggs, fish, seafood<br> 8. What is your favourite CD at moment? Avenged Sevenfold<br> 9. What kind of car do you drive? A Punto<br> 10.Favourite sandwich? Marmite<br> 11.What characteristic do you despise? Dishonesty, Ignorance<br> 12.Favourite item of clothing? Giraffe pants, £5 dress<br> 13.If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? To see the Northern Lights<br> 14.Favourite brand of clothing? Dude Girl<br> 15.Where would you retire to? Download Festival<br> 16.What was your most recent memorable birthday? The last one<br> 17. Favourite sport to watch? Ice hockey<br> 18. Furtherest place you are sending this? Who knows!<br> 19. Person you expect to send it back first? Probably no-one<br> 20. When is your birthday? July<br> 21. you a morning person or a night person? Night<br> 22. What is your shoe size? 5<br> 23. Pets? A cat and some fishies<br> 24. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with us? I am considering dating a shorter man.<br> 25. What did you want to be when you were little? Wonderful<br> 26. How are you today? Meh. In between.<br> 27. What is your favourite sweets? Cherry lips<br> 28.What is your favourite flower? Lillies or daisies<br> 29. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? 4 November<br> 30. What is your full name? That Is A Secret<br> 31. What are you listening to right now? Hootie & the Blowfish<br> 32. What was the last thing you ate? An almond magnum<br> 33. Do you wish on stars? Of course!<br> 34. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? Black<br> 35. How is the weather right now? Dark but dry<br> 36. The first person you spoke to on the phone today? BossMan<br> 37.Favourite soft drink? Coke<br> 38. Favourite restaurant? Va Pensiero<br> 39. Real hair colour? Mid brown<br> 40. What was your favourite toy as a child? Knives<br> 41. Summer or winter? Winter<br> 42. Hugs or kisses? Hugs - you can get them from your friends<br> 43. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate<br> 44. Coffee or tea? Coffee in the daytime, tea in the evening<br> 45. Do you want your friends to Post you back? If they want to<br> 46. When was the last time you cried? Monday night after I finished reading 'Breaking Dawn'<br> 47. What is under your bed? Roler Derby kit and assorted tat<br> 48. What did you do last night? Went to Band Camp<br> 49. What are you afraid of? Spiders, clowns, the dark, dying alone in a rancid squat<br> 50. Salty or sweet? Sweet<br> 51. How many keys on your key ring? 3<br> 52. How many years at your current job? 0.75<br> 53. Favourite day of the week? Friday because it holds the promise of the weekend<br> 54. How many towns have you lived in? 7<br> 55. Do you make friends easily? With the right people, yes<br> 56. How many people will you send this to? Not sending it, just putting it up to be looked at by whoever wants to see it<br> 57. How many will respond? Who ever would like to tell me more about them</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/09/11/stolen-from-fluffchucker-4715566/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>entertainmentabout-melifehttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/09/11/stolen-from-fluffchucker-4715566/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/09/01/the-boys-of-summer-4669157/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-09-01:/2008/09/01/the-boys-of-summer-4669157/Mon, 01 Sep 2008 23:03:10 +0200 <p>Ah, the boys of summer. Where in the name of arse are they? Actually where in the name of arse is summer? Whoever said 'It can't rain all the time' has clearly never even heard of TownWhereILive. It never stops. I swear to god it's rained 99% of the time since I moved back from London. The pots and baskets my Dad planted to beautify our drive are on the verge of drowning and come to think of it, so am I.</p> <p>The thought of waking up every sodding morning and having to face another day of pouring b*stard rain just makes me SO unwilling to actually get out of bed.</p> <p>I've been reading a lot (more) about the West Memphis 3 lately. This case scares the pants off me, not only because of the UTTER disgrace of it all due to total lack of evidence but also because these guys are my age, they had the same interests I had and when you look at the satanic panic that took them down, that could have been me, or my friends, or any of the boys I went out with at 17. Lets hope that the next few months bring the justice they so ultimately deserve. Damien Echols is a total wonder - I could not, would not be that serene, patient and forgiving in the situation he is in. He is. <a href="http://www.wm3.org">www.wm3.org</a> - know the truth.</p> <p>In other news, a fabulous weekend was had! Friday I went for a 'quiet' drink with TheAussie and HCH. This culminated in our friend Alan getting punched by some heinous ChavBoy, merely because we (and he) objected to ChavBoy's insistence on calling TheAussie 'a c*nt'. I hear that ChavBoy got his comeuppance on Saturday avo, and so karma prevails. The night ended at Cleaners house, chatting to HBIL on Facebook til 3am, during which time he declared himself to be in love with my reproductive system (looooonng story that one, geeky too), gave me his phone number, and possibly took yours truly up on the offer of getting drunk under a table somewhere. </p> <p>I don't know what is going on in that beautiful man's head, I don't know if he's even remotely interested in me in THAT way, but my god I could spend weeks just chatting to him. You'd have to blindfold me though because if I started looking at him I'm pretty sure I'd never want to stop.</p> <p>Saturday was a wonderful party to celebrate Miss Cleaner's 30th birthday. And the sun shone! The whole time! Great company, great food, many laughs, many beers, many too many of Juju's infamous vodka jellies and another 5am bedtime. Followed by an HOUR of dishwashing the following morning. Remind me again why I stayed over? Oh that's right, because I didn't realise the time til 2:30am, and you can't get a taxi in TWIL for love or money after midnight.</p> <p>Am also crushing madly on GuitarBoy at work. This guy is GORGEOUS. big brown eyes, rock hard abs, long dark hair, plays some wicked guitar, flirts with me (I think). Oh, and is 20. WHY? 10 years older and he would seriously be my perfect man (well, joint perfect with HBIL naturally!). </p> <p>Am now right and fully sick of being single. Seriously, I've got the proper hump with it. Although that's probably just today and I shall be fine by the morning / weekend / lunchtime tomorrow. Who knows. Must be feeling generally restless because I am also coveting new tattoo's and piercings.</p> <p>I have spent the last couple of months completely overdoing it, melting the candle at all the ends as well as in the middle and generally wearing myself out. This coming weekend, I have no plans. None. Well, except for lunch with my Mother and Grandmother on Saturday, but no GOING OUT plans. And I don't think I like it.... But I refuse to socialise in TWIL for a week or two (see ChavBoy incident above) and could seriously do with keeping my pennies for Amsterdam at the end of the month.</p> <p>That's enough for now - tis bedtime. So a sweet 'goodnight' to you all. Lets hope the sun shines soon, figuratively as well as literally.</p> <p>Love ya!<br> A x </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/09/01/the-boys-of-summer-4669157/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>lifelovefriendsdatinghttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/09/01/the-boys-of-summer-4669157/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/08/20/and-then-i-got-to-thinking-4613477/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-08-20:/2008/08/20/and-then-i-got-to-thinking-4613477/Wed, 20 Aug 2008 14:18:15 +0200 <p>Tom asked me a question following my last post which got me thinking - he asked me 'Where do you go to look for men?'. I replied that basically I go to gigs or the pub, because these are the places I go. Then I thought about it a bit more, and actually I DON'T go looking for men.. I go to the places I go to have fun with my girlfriends, and we have a fabulous time every time and if there are boys involved, then so be it. (A very healthy way of going about things if you ask me).</p> <p>But, realistically I believe that I shouldnt HAVE to look for men. I think they should FIND me - the old fashioned way. HCH and I were talking about this yesterday, and we've come to the conclusion that maybe boys are intimidated by us, because we're always having such a great time by ourselves that they subconsciously realise they aren't needed and can never match up to how utterly awesome we are already, so they don't bother.</p> <p>However, I am not willing to being the Internet Dating thing. Lots of people I know are dating using this method of doing things, but I'm just not ready to give up on the old fashioned 'meet someone, get asked out, fall in love' way of doing it yet.</p> <p>Had a fab time last weekend at Domfest - a little festival in my Boss' barn. Lots and lots of gorgeous posh boys about the place, so HCH and I had a great time eyeing them all up. We got inadvertently plastered on freakishly strong local cider, got stuck in a hammock (TWICE), sat on bales of hay, put up the NEW people's tent in the pouring rain, got the car stuck in the mud and had it pushed out by just TWO boys, went to a tea-dance in a tent within a barn, had much hilarity with the leaky airbed and Juju's pump and ate lots of gingernuts. And all in the space of 22 hours. Lovely weekend indeed - like a mini-Download!!</p> <p>Oh, and update on the idiot ex - he sent my SISTER a friend request on Facebook with a note saying he hoped they could be friends because he's not a bad guy! Ha! Like she doesnt want him dead...</p> <p>Bank Holiday this week - who knows what will happen?! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/08/20/and-then-i-got-to-thinking-4613477/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>girlsdatingrelationshipsfriendslifehttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/08/20/and-then-i-got-to-thinking-4613477/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/08/19/easier-than-breaking-up-and-crying-in-th-4610994/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-08-19:/2008/08/19/easier-than-breaking-up-and-crying-in-th-4610994/Tue, 19 Aug 2008 22:43:24 +0200 <p>So another one of my friends names the day, and I get to be Bridesmaid again. I am so happy for Jables because her and Mr T are so very well suited and so utterly bonkers about each other that it honestly does warm the cockles of my weasly black heart.</p> <p>But it also makes me think - When is it my turn? Where is he? Been having this conversation with my single girlfriends a lot lately, and its all getting a bit stupid. We don't meet decent men, at all. The couple of dates I've been on have been like bad job interviews - get home afterwards, dump my handbag, take off the makeup and the heels and sigh before confining it to the annuls of history.</p> <p>I've been listening to this (genius) song lately - its from the new Alkaline Trio CD, and its a really happy song actually. Even though I love my friends and I'm super happy that they're happy, I sometimes want it to be my turn. I do not in any way wish my friends to hell, cringe at wedding bells or wish them to shut up. They are not making me sick.. Its just a good song that makes me think! (And like the man says, I DO fall in love with people that I'm never gonna meet!)</p> <p>Love love, Kiss kiss - Alkaline Trio</p> <p>Take a look you see I painted you a picture,<br> It's black and white except the blood's a little richer<br> Down in the corner I gave it my signature<br> And then I titled it "This one's for the Winter"</p> <p>Check it out, you'll see it's just a big disaster<br> I dedicate it to the fact that it's so hard for you to dream,<br> A million heartbeats around you make it hard to sleep<br> Doesn't help you're freezing in your bed your blankets aren't enough<br> All you want is some one there, all you say is so what.</p> <p>Love, Love, Kiss, Kiss, blah blah blah.<br> You're making me sick, I wish you'd just stop showing off<br> For the rest of us that no one wants to love<br> It's hard enough trying to drink another Winter all alone<br> Love, Love, Kiss, Kiss, blah blah blah.</p> <p>Well do you find you like to fall in love with people that you're never gonna meet?<br> It's easier than breaking up and crying in the street<br> Do you curse the happy couple? Do you cringe at wedding bells?<br> Do you drink up all the punch while you wish 'em all to hell</p> <p>Love, Love, Kiss, Kiss, blah blah blah.<br> You're making me sick, I wish you'd just stop showing off<br> For the rest of us that no one wants to love<br> It's hard enough trying to drink another Winter all alone<br> Love, Love, Kiss, Kiss, blah blah blah.</p> <p>You can't escape this fatal case of melancholia<br> It's in your face, in every place you go it's stalking you<br> And there are days when we all say we feel we just can't go on<br> But you've felt this way all along</p> <p>Love, Love, Kiss, Kiss, blah blah blah.<br> You're making me sick, I wish you'd just stop showing off<br> For the rest of us that no one wants to love<br> It's hard enough trying to drink another Winter all alone<br> Love, Love, Kiss, Kiss, blah blah blah.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/08/19/easier-than-breaking-up-and-crying-in-th-4610994/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>friendsloverelationshipsweddingslifehttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/08/19/easier-than-breaking-up-and-crying-in-th-4610994/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/08/05/jaked-on-green-beers-4546965/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-08-05:/2008/08/05/jaked-on-green-beers-4546965/Tue, 05 Aug 2008 17:49:50 +0200 <p>There's a song I love, which I heard for the first time after I broke up with The Ex. Describes how I feel about him more or less perfectly.</p> <p>Alkaline Trio - Jaked on Green Beers</p> <p>It's been a long time since I've been close to you<br> It's been a long time since I've been sad.<br> It's been a while since I've really spent time with you<br> Wish I could take back the times that I had.<br> The only thing that you ever really did for me<br> Was make me oh so miserable.<br> And the hope that I never see your face again<br> Is anything but questionable.</p> <p>I hope this is goodbye.<br> I hope this is goodbye.</p> <p>There was a time when I thought you were a friend to me<br> I think those times I was probably just drunk.<br> And if they offered a test about being a good friend<br> I'd put money down that you'd surely flunk.<br> The only thing that you ever really took from me<br> Were my records to sell them for dope.<br> Now all I have left is this heart in my chest<br> And my happiness helping me cope</p> <p>I hope this is goodbye</p> <p>Anyway, back to this. Seeing as I feel this way about him, and he lied, cheated and drank his way through the 4 years we were together, WHY oh WHY does he want to be my friend? I'm assuming its to assuage his guilt at being such a total and utter loser and all round shite boyfriend and generally pathetic human being. Thus far I have been subjected to:</p> <p>Crawling 'Im sorry' text</p> <p>Crawling 'I'm sorry' letter (following me seeing him at the dentist when he looked like he'd been sleeping in the woods) accompanied by 6 CDs I never liked and didn't know I was missing</p> <p>Some of his creepy gobshite mates attempting to infiltrate my inner circle on facebook, resulting in me using FAR more 'f' words than I'd usually use in a 6 line message to one of them, followed by a blocking of said friend and expulsion from one of my groups</p> <p>And NOW a facebook friend request from The Ex. Of course I ignored it and blocked him. Seriously THE stupidest man I ever, ever met. And shite in bed too. </p> <p>More later! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/08/05/jaked-on-green-beers-4546965/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>loverelationshipslifemusichttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/08/05/jaked-on-green-beers-4546965/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/07/30/tales-from-the-mad-apple-4518271/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-07-30:/2008/07/30/tales-from-the-mad-apple-4518271/Wed, 30 Jul 2008 01:18:26 +0200 <p>Hello! God, its been ages hasn't it? How have you been? I've been so busy - my TV Boyfriend is woefully neglected!</p> <p>Had the best time in Dublin - LadyJ and TheAussie were top roomies and totally appreciated the importance of a day in bed with a subway, trashy telly, trashy mags, tunes and sleeping to ward off a hangover. There were several incidents which I'll gloss over to protect the innocent... The Parmesan Incident (if you want to know more, ask LadyJ to mime it for you), and The Dodgy Foreign Money Incident to name but two....</p> <p>Met tons of totally fabulous mental people, chiefly:</p> <p>DrunkStockbroker - literally THE drunkest man I ever met, and possibly the most bonkers. And yes, of COURSE I loved him on sight and want to run away with him. I love a bonkers man.</p> <p>StripClubMan - no, thanks, my friends and I don't want to come to a strip club with you. Ask your wife.</p> <p>TheStag - a very gorgeous Northerner who asked me outright was I going to suck his c*ck, 5 minutes into our conversation and before anything untoward had even been thought of (but only by me, clearly). Umm, no. And well done on letting yourself down badly there. Seriously - you've not even got the 'Im so unhappy in my relationship' excuse. You're on your STAG DO. F**k dogs and porches, that guy was just a dog.</p> <p>Had a great weekend in between - FOOGO in TownNearHere then camping for the night with HCH. Got chatted up by inbreeders (her), nearly crippled myself sleeping on the floor, got chatted up by a 'special' person (me), got no sleep and were rudely awoken by shouting children who's Dads clearly thought we were a terrible influence and should be ignored. 'No son, don't look at them. They're evil'.</p> <p>This weekend rocked also - Friday in CityNearishHere, Saturday went to a wedding and Sunday went to see Slaves to Gravity (buy their CD immediately - its amazing). They were so good - should have been headlining for definite. Their singer is a religious experience. Serious fox.</p> <p>Tonight I went on a date with a 21 year old I met Friday night. I know, I know. But I had a great time - hes cute, funny, intelligent, doesnt seem to have any psychotic tendencies, can actually have a conversation and good stuff like that. Very very, well 21 though. We'll see - not like I'm marrying him is it. Just trying another one on for size. He came over on the train bless him and we went to the cinema. Bit of a snog, nowt major!</p> <p>Got home and received a total random text from Mr B who I have not heard from in months. Clearly his ex has dumped him yet again and he thinks I'm gonna take him paddling. No be f*cked matey. Not in this lifetime. So I replied saying 'sorry who is this?'. I knew damn well it was him - no one else calls me 'girl', but still. He replied and said something about getting together sometime and I just said yeah sure give me a shout really busy lah lah lah. Sure he won't bother.</p> <p>Anyway, that was all horribly rushed but you get the gist I hope (had to update this before MrsPW shouted at me!). Shall update more regularly and in more detail in future.</p> <p>This message was brought to you by the CDs:<br> Slaves to Gravity - Scatter the Crow<br> Less Than Jake - GNVFLA<br> Alkaline Trio - Agony & Irony<br> Kid Rock - Rock n Roll Jesus<br> Foxboro Hot Tubs - Stop, Drop and Roll</p> <p>and by the books:<br> Devils Knot by Mara Leveritt (please please please check out <a href="http://www.wm3.org">www.wm3.org</a>)<br> The Herion Diaries by Nikki Sixx</p> <p>and by the movie The Dark Knight which I just went to see. I think it says a lot about me that Christian Bale is stunning, Bruce Wayne is a fox, Batman is of COURSE hot as hell but I'd take The Joker any day.</p> <p>Night y'all - loves ya!<br> xxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/07/30/tales-from-the-mad-apple-4518271/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/07/30/tales-from-the-mad-apple-4518271/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/07/07/all-summer-long-4415503/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-07-07:/2008/07/07/all-summer-long-4415503/Mon, 07 Jul 2008 15:51:29 +0200 <p>Oooh, Monday again already – flying by isn’t it. This Thursday (in 3 sleeps time to be precise) I shall be turning 33. Or 26 again if you believe my showbiz age. Not impressed at all – it’s not that I’m stressed about it because I gave that malarkey up when I turned 30. It’s more that the older I get, the younger the hot guys seem to get…. </p> <p>Specially in TownWhereILive, all the single guys around my age seem to be total degenerate nomarks who are single for a reason. Or they have kids, and no offence but I don’t DO kids. I don’t want my own, so I’m not going to deal with someone else’s. Well, that and the fact that I am horribly insecure, so having to have someone’s ex in my life forever would probably tip me over the edge.</p> <p>This weekend was goodish– Friday night was TheAussie’s leaving drinks. I somehow managed to get a lot drunker than I had anticipated, purely drinking cider. Also ALL of my mates from TownWhereILive were out and about. At some point late in the evening EmoBoy said something mean to me and I totally lost my sh*t and had a crying episode. Which was awesome because as I just said, ALL my mates were out and about, so everyone I know saw me lose it. Shameful much.</p> <p>Hated myself all day Saturday, because that just is NOT me. I HATE being The Girl Who Cried In The Pub. Do it about twice a year tops, which considering how often I go out, really isn’t that bad, but it always makes me feel like such a total tw*t because I’m quite good at dealing with my sh*t in my own time. Spent Saturday afternoon hanging out at Mother’s house as it was her birthday. </p> <p>Saturday night I went to a wedding do and popped into town for a few afterwards, mainly on a rescue mission to remove BB from the jaws of certain doom. Mission accomplished (I think). EmoBoy apologised to me because he remembered saying something mean, but couldn’t remember what (neither could I which is odd considering how monumentally upsetting I found it at the time). I got chatted up by some total random 23 year old who seemed incredibly camp, but I was assured he was not A Gay (not by him – didn’t like to ask him). Being rather (very) plastered at the time, I kind of agreed to go out with him last night.</p> <p>When I woke up Sunday morning I realised that I did not want to go out with this guy – he had been texting me til gone 2:30am Saturday night, banging on about how he thought I was great and he really wanted to get to know me better. I hoped against all hope that he would have forgotten about it by then – lets face it, they usually do. But no. About 11:50 he started texting me again, and kept doing so at approximately 20 minute intervals, all day. At one point I was watching a film with Dad and LilSis – after the film I looked at my phone and he had text me SIX times. Without ONE reply from me.</p> <p>He kept texting me until about 8pm by which point I had put my phone on silent so it wouldn’t drive me insane. Only sent one today as far as I know but I can’t get any reception at work.. preparing for some kind of onslaught of randomness after 5pm. Its not JUST the fact that he’s 23 (EmoBoy is 23 and he’s lots of fun. YoungBloke is 21, and he’s heaps of fun), he’s tres camp, really not my type and just a bit DESPERATE. SO I think I’m going to give him a bit of TTM treatment and tell him that things are complicated right now, and I’m not in the right place mentally for dating (good one HCH – implies that I might be crazy so best to leave me alone).</p> <p>Why is it always the ones you DO want that don’t get in touch, and the ones you DON’T want who won’t leave you alone? Humph.</p> <p>3 sleeps til Dublin also – am very excited about a weekend of Paddy Pouncing!! Happy Birthday to Lady J for today!!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/07/07/all-summer-long-4415503/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>drinkingentertainmentlovelifehttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/07/07/all-summer-long-4415503/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/07/02/random-wednesday-post-4393827/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-07-02:/2008/07/02/random-wednesday-post-4393827/Wed, 02 Jul 2008 13:56:25 +0200 <p>Had another one of my 'bright ideas' yesterday and decided to get my lip pierced. Been thinking about it for years and finally decided to get off my arse and do it. So I did. Got a little stud through the left hand side of my bottom lip - will be changing it for a sleeper asap. Was vaguely disappointed that it didn't hurt, and still doesn't. </p> <p>Not sure why the lack of pain is making me unhappy but I think I'd wound myself up for the fact that I'd be in 7 shades of pain and unable to eat for days, thus rendering myself skinny as a whippet and all tortured and even paler than I am now. Ho hum. Not even that swollen so its all good and I love it.</p> <p>My Dad will have a breakdown - he's really queasy and piercings of any sort (even ear lobes) make him feel nauseous.. my Mother will love it - she'll pretend to be all mortified but within weeks I'll be made to show it to everyone like I have to with my tattoos. She'll have her camera phone out later I bet you!</p> <p>Because its the Summer Hollies season, I was thinking back to last year, when ExBoy and I went to Lanzarote for the week. By this point in our mockery of a relationship, we were barely speaking, definitely not having sex and had nothing but contempt for one another. A week abroad was possibly THE worst idea in the world, but I wanted to go and he couldn't be bothered to say no (particularly as I was organising it and paying for most of it), so we went.</p> <p>We had a MAJOR argument 4 days before we went (his drinking as usual) and it was touch and go whether I'd be going on hols by myself. We didn't speak for 2 days and I can't remember entirely but I probably gave in to have some peace and off we went. </p> <p>The sun was amazing, the relaxation was fabulous just a shame about the company I had to keep really. Every little thing he said, did, or thought wound me up til I basically couldn't breathe without wanting to strangle him and I spent the entire week DYING to get home because I knew I was seeing Less Than Jake play live 6 nights in a row starting the day we landed.</p> <p>At least I got a tan.</p> <p>Have to say that this year of being single is shaping up so much better. I know I moan about it, but its so much nicer to spend my breaks with my girls. We laugh, we moan and we laugh a lot more but god we enjoy every single second of it. Every trip is a little example of democracy in action, unlike when I went anywhere with ExBoy and I had to be the Grown Up and make all the decisions and organise everything then he'd moan like hell if he didn't like it. Oh, and I get to kiss other boys now too.</p> <p>Next week I am off to Dublin for my birthday with Lady J and TheAussie. It will be a fabulous girly weekend of drinking and laughing and not enough sleep. Lets hope they've got cider on tap over there by now though...</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/07/02/random-wednesday-post-4393827/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>lifeholidayspiercingslovefriendsrelationshipshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/07/02/random-wednesday-post-4393827/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/29/call-me-what-you-like-just-don-t-call-me-4381081/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-06-29:/2008/06/29/call-me-what-you-like-just-don-t-call-me-4381081/Sun, 29 Jun 2008 17:59:46 +0200 <p>Fabulous night out with the ladies last night (Red, BB and Lady J) - had some drinks at mine to start with then headed to the local Spoons to see what was going on. After a couple there, we headed to Pubonthecorner where the pints are cold, the jukebox is awesome yet expensive and there was practically no-one out.</p> <p>By this point I was rather merry, and as soon as we walked in I spotted him... the guy I took home the last time I was on a bender in TownWhereILive.. he's absolutely gorgeous (again with the punching above my weight thing), has a girlfriend, is the nephew of someone I know and oh yeah, is 21.. I didnt go and talk to him, but he was making eyes at me across the pub for a while and we ended up chatting several times in the queue for the jukebox... that really flirty chatting where you stand a bit too close, and lean in a bit too far, and speak a bit too quietly and make a bit too much eye contact... yummy.</p> <p>He was out with his uncle, and said that he'd like to come home with me if he could lose his mates. Which he did. He then spent 20 minutes making eyes at me across the bar before coming over to sit and chat. Then we came home together. Really shouldn't have had sex with him, but I did, and it was excellent and I would do it again...</p> <p>Then about 1:30am my phone beeped with a text. I just assumed it was one of the girls checking I was alive.. being otherwise engaged at the time, I didn't bother to look at it right away.. About an hour later I looked ... It was TTM. </p> <p>All he said was 'Hiya, I'm sorry for the late reply. Yeah things are complicated at the mo. I will explain one day'. Sorry - how high? Good god - nothing for a week and a half, then just as I'm starting to not obssess about him, a text. Which basically says nothing at all anyway. I kind of knew he'd be in touch the second I was involved in any sort of physical contact with someone else...</p> <p>Honestly, this guy has got me vexed - I've met him TWICE and in a totally unrealistic situation at that, and I am obssessed. I don't even KNOW the guy. He's probaby an idiot. But he didn't seem it you know? He seemed really nice, and I honestly had such a good, good feeling about him. I'm still not getting my hopes up though.</p> <p>So in the spirit of 'friends with benefits' I told YoungGuy about TTM - he seemed a bit put out, which I think is rich as he's got a girlfriend yet is in my bed, but he's getting mardy because I have a crush? Great stuff - god bless the young people.</p> <p>Anyway, I think YoungGuy had an attack of the guilts because after some more fooling around and general chatting, he went home. At like 3:30am. Walked. To the other end of town. So I went to sleep thinking about TTM and men in general and how much they get to you, just by being men.</p> <p>Woke up at 8am with a hangover I did NOT deserve - there is NO way I was THAT drunk. Personally I blame the Jack Daniels. I only had 2 at the end of the night, but they seemed to finish me off. Went downstairs about 9, made some toast and got back into bed. Woke up again about 11 with an attack of The Fear. Went back to sleep. Woke up again around 1, finally got out of bed around 2. Felt better once I actually got up and about.</p> <p>So now I'm cooking dinner for my Dad and I, and I may pop down to see Cleaner later cos I need to make someone else obssess about TTM with me..... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/29/call-me-what-you-like-just-don-t-call-me-4381081/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>sexlovedatinghttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/29/call-me-what-you-like-just-don-t-call-me-4381081/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/27/drive-yourself-insane-tonight-its-not-th-4372187/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-06-27:/2008/06/27/drive-yourself-insane-tonight-its-not-th-4372187/Fri, 27 Jun 2008 15:40:13 +0200 <p>So, well, another working week over - thank god. This week at work has been all kinds of horrendous. Everyone around me is quitting and no-one is getting replaced and the ones that are left are getting worse.... at least I've got Googlemail so I can chat to my colleagues whilst pretending to be listening to the Boss Man.</p> <p>The weekend before payday, so I am broke as you like and so will be spending tomorrow night out in TownWhereILive... haven't seen some of the girls for a while though, so it will be entertaining as hell. (And no MFT to force us all into Sambucca related oblivion). The Family have abandoned me for the weekend (Dad for work, LilSis gone to Ibiza) so I am home alone - in the past this has worked out quite well and I've usually managed to find some sort of entertainment to keep me from going insane in my own company.</p> <p>Hence the giraffe pants (which worked so well the day of the Grand Slam when I was punching WAY above my weight and pulled RHG) have been washed and dried, and all my favourite outfits are clean and good to go. </p> <p>No word from TTM, so I am taking that as a rejection and giving him a big 'NEXT'. My friend LC saw a photo of him yesterday, and despite knowing nothing of it said that she's getting he has a lot of loose ends to tie up in a relationship that has ended recently, and has someone hanging around he wants rid of but he's very kind if a bit messed up. She's clairvoyant by the way. . I would still ask how high if he called me and said 'jump' but maybe I am in need of new distractions.</p> <p>I just want a really, REALLY good snog if I'm honest - can't be bothered with sex (and if I met a guy I really liked, I'd definitely go slow and hold off on the actual sex) but a really good snog would be fabulous.. Have kind of had the offer of one from EmoBoy, who is tall, good looking, a really, really great kisser and hilarious to get messed up with so we'll see how that pans out - its great because we have NO illusions about each other as potential dating material, we don't even want to actually 'do it' to each other but its awesome to get messy and snog against the park wall on the way home from the pub like a couple of teenagers. Happy days. The only problem is that half of TownWhereILive think he's my boyfriend, which probably isn't doing anything for either of our chances of ACTUALLY meeting someone. Ho hum.</p> <p>Hope everyone has a fabulous weekend - may all your pints be cold ones </p> <p>SGA xx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/27/drive-yourself-insane-tonight-its-not-th-4372187/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>datingsexlovedrinkinghttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/27/drive-yourself-insane-tonight-its-not-th-4372187/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/23/good-things-come-to-girls-who-wait-4351553/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-06-23:/2008/06/23/good-things-come-to-girls-who-wait-4351553/Mon, 23 Jun 2008 12:48:40 +0200 <p>So anyway, I decided to text TTM on Thursday night. Actually my friend RB bullied me into it, but all the same I did it. </p> <p>Basically I text him and asked if he'd like to go out sometime, and he replied that he'd love to see me but he cant at the moment. Things are difficult. Sounds like a cop out but maybe if we meet up at some point he'll explain. He ended on a question, which I felt it would be polite to reply to. He then said that 'maybe' he'd come to TownWhereILive and explain to me in person one night. </p> <p>So not a right out 'F**K NO', but still not great. I have now deleted him from my phone to remove the temptation of drunk dialling/texting. Either this guy is sincere, in which case he'll sort his sh*t out and come and get me, or more likely he is a player with a great line in excuses. Either way I shant be holding my breath.</p> <p>Its just SUCH a pain in the arse though - meet a bloke I really like and he has ISSUES (or just plain doesn't like me....). </p> <p>I am so cheesed off with blokes at the moment - I'm starting to think its like a tin of quality street 2 weeks after Christmas and only the rubbish ones are left! Seriously - I've been dating SO long and I just keep meeting total and utter wasters. Where are the good ones? Where? Do they actually exist? Bah!</p> <p>The guys I DON'T want won't leave me alone - case in point the Ex-Love Of My Life who is now a raging screaming MESS and recently got back in touch and texts me rather too regularly trying to get me to go out with him - and the ones I like are all liars, weirdo's, deranged, mad as a box of frogs or just plain freaks. </p> <p>Oh, or short - lots and lots and lots of very good looking but very, very short men about at the moment. I know this is a tad shallow, but I am 5 foot 9 in my bare feet, I like to wear heels and I want a tall boyfriend. Is it too much to ask? (Apparently, yes).</p> <p>Had a lovely weekend though - a Hen do in Cardiff on Saturday which was lots of fun, plenty of booze, a lovely lunch, more booze, bit of dancing and yet more booze. Oh and a bit of a cheeky snog from a gorgeous, tall bloke from Away. Who turned out to be attached. Not my problem (its every girl for herself out there). And now back to work - *sigh*. Only 2 weeks, then I've got 2 short weeks for my Birthday trip to Dublin. Can't believe I am going to be 33 - seems SO old. I thought I'd have it all sorted by now... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/23/good-things-come-to-girls-who-wait-4351553/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>lovehttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/23/good-things-come-to-girls-who-wait-4351553/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/18/download-come-down-4334392/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-06-18:/2008/06/18/download-come-down-4334392/Wed, 18 Jun 2008 22:56:20 +0200 <p>God Download was amazing!! No Kid Rock which was a total bummer, but it rocked. Ms HCH and I had a wonderful time! Fab bands, bit too much walking, plenty of cider, lots of lovely new people, plenty of dirt, sunshine, tiny bit of rain, not a huge amount of food, new fun made up games, tons of photos, completely feral by Sunday and more laughs than I've had in ages.</p> <p>Met this guy - lets call him TTM. Met him Friday when I was randomly talking to his mate and he came to talk to me. Had a bit of a cheeky snog, and I was invited to spend the night at his (in Black Camp - totally feral over there they were. Its the place where dreams are made!). So I did. Nothing much happened (I'm a good girl, and lets face it festivals are tres grubby). He walked me home in the morning. We met up again Sunday night. Ended up partying at his camp with all his mates til about 4am. </p> <p>I really like this guy. He's about as close physically to my Ideal Man as I have ever seen. He's really cute, really smart, really funny and told me he was single... SO should I text him and ask him if he'd like to meet for a drink? </p> <p>I HATE asking guys out, and I know The Rules says girls shouldnt - if he likes you that much he'll ask but I HATE playing games (and personally think about 99% of The Rules is UTTER boll*cks). I just KNOW that if I DO, and he says no, I'll feel wretched. On the other hand he might say yes.... GOD its so HARD!! If I DO text him, it wont be til Friday - he text me Monday (I replied), so Friday's a good gap I reckon... Plus I've got a big night out Saturday, so if he DOES reject me horribly, at least I can drown my sorrows... Oh what the hell to do.</p> <p>And what if I dont ask and spend the rest of my life regretting it?</p> <p>Like Alkaline Trio say though 'Just be true to yourself, if it lands you in hell, well at least now you know'.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/18/download-come-down-4334392/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>lovelifehttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/18/download-come-down-4334392/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/12/download-or-bust-4305022/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-06-12:/2008/06/12/download-or-bust-4305022/Thu, 12 Jun 2008 09:05:22 +0200 <p>Wooo! No sleeps! It's Download day, so in approx 2 hours I shall be loading myself and my mate Ms HCH into the car and heading up North! The plan (as I see it) is to sit as men do and talk of important things.</p> <p>The plan (as it will be) will involve getting plastered, sitting down, watching bands, meeting friends and hopefully kissing a lot of boys... I shall be employing my 'showbiz age' this weekend, and after careful consideration, I'm going with 26. No-one ever believes I'm 32 anyway, so what the hell. Maybe I should get a 'showbiz job' to go with it....</p> <p>That guy I went out with twice - lets call him Mr B - text me at 12:20 last night - hadn't heard from him in a fortnight and he's been spotted all over town this week with his ex-ex gf... totally wasn't that into him to be fair, he was fun and all, but a bit scruffy, drank WAY too much (reminiscent of the ex) and the guy wanted to go paddling without his wellies on - not in MY paddling pool matey. Haven't replied to the text yet - can't be arsed.</p> <p>So I am going to go and have my last shower til Monday! Best make it a good one then.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/12/download-or-bust-4305022/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/12/download-or-bust-4305022/#commentshttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/10/first-post-then-4299603/tag:mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk,2008-06-10:/2008/06/10/first-post-then-4299603/Tue, 10 Jun 2008 23:45:03 +0200 <p>Hey, </p> <p>So this is my first post. Where to start. Well, I have been single for 7 months now, and I love it, hate it and am indifferent to it all at the same time.</p> <p>Love being able to do what I like without having to check in with a b/f.<br> Hate not having regular snogs.<br> Love being able to have random pashing sessions with any boy I choose.<br> Hate the total and utter lack of sex.</p> <p>All the usual stuff, you know, so I wont bore you with what we all already know. Basically I've started this blog because a friend told me I had to so she could read about my apparent 'exploits'. There'll be no such thing - this town is way too small for those... believe me, the last bloke I had exploits with (i.e. a snog) is now apparently My Boyfriend, according to 2 separate sources. Awesome. </p> <p>Anyway, I am tired as hell, not feeling very chipper so I'm going to bed. More later. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/10/first-post-then-4299603/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>lovehttp://mytvboyfriend.blog.co.uk/2008/06/10/first-post-then-4299603/#comments